For so long, she fought to leave, and there was something about the forcing that made her feet feel as if her legs were stuck in quicksand… and I think it might have been the hours planning the exit that made her overthink herself back into oblivion.
She’d spent days calculating what she’d lose in the aftermath, days constructing a blueprint that pointed her to an exit, and found out that there were several, but the fatigue behind making a choice stopped her in her tracks as she’d put off this journey for another day.
And that’s the thing about searching for a next time: the next day turns into weeks, and the weeks become months, and before you know it, you’ve remained in a place for years that could never fully hold you, and maybe that’s where you are as you read these words…
Maybe you’ve gone too long in a place where everything kept coming up too short. Maybe you’ve spent way too much time in a place with someone who rarely made time to see you for who you are and all that you are willing to become in an effort to make love grow.
Maybe you’re here because you’re looking for something to remind you, to help push you, or even guide you, even though your fucking heart knows the way. And while I am grateful your eyes have arrived here, I hate that it had to be you. I hate that we are meeting here because of this circumstance, but I take great pride that you took a moment to let me reach you the only way I know how….
I’m proud of you… that desire to move forward is a blessing; it’s a gift really. It’s the beginning of your new life; it’s the beginning of a new chapter… hell… it’s the beginning of an entirely new book. At this point, you only have one more thing to do… choose yourself in a way that makes your legs move in the direction of a life that aligns with everything you are seeking, everything that you know you deserve! Choose yourself in a way that helps you breathe freely, in a way that helps you cultivate a level of peace you’ve never known before, and while that may be unfamiliar, your heart and your mind have been identifying with someone you’ve never had because you are genuinely deserving of an experience that has often escaped you.
You can do it alone; you’re fully capable of that… you are fully equipped to do hard things, but I do want to offer you some level of support in the form of this…
Two journals, meant to be combined, 60 days total, and my words, my poems, my expressions enclosed to help you reset, restart, and renew…
Choose it if you’d like… choose it if you feel your heart needs some reassurance, choose it if your mind has been heavy and your spirit has been weary….
I’ll leave this button below for you to press and decide…
Take care of yourself and thank you for reading…
